mary mary quite contrary

newsflash

2005-12-21T05:36:04Z

so for those of you who haven't seen me yet... i did something a little bit crazy today. zany, if you will. i had ten inches of my hair cut off so that i can donate it to locks of love! shazaam! i kinda miss my golden locks already considering i've been growing them out since 6th grade. but i like my new haircut and hopefully it will be much less high-maintenance.

whoop there it is!

Today made me realize...

2005-12-13T22:33:58Z

that I am such a prude, or at least that is how people think of me.

oh well.
it's cool I guess.
I'll live.

All Hallow's Eve

2005-11-01T01:51:22Z

So today is Halloween. My favorite holiday of all time. It was a pretty good day for a monday but kind of a sad Halloween for me. I had about 6 tiny groups of trick-or-treaters come to my house and that was a bit of a dissapointment so from the hours of 5-7 I mostly sat in my best Halloween getup (homecoming dress and orange and black knee socks) anticipating the arrival of tiny trick-or-treaters but ended up watching the History channel and eating candy with the occasional ringing of the doorbell. You can stop reading now if you'd like. This isn't going to get much more exciting. Today is my last official Halloween spent as a child. It makes me want to cry. But then again I will always love Halloween whether I am at parties in college, going around with my own little trick-or-treaters, or old and whithered and wearing a sweater with cheezy pumpkins and leaves on it. I can't help but love it. Here's to you Halloween! I raise my cup of hot chocolate to you and all of your splendors. Happy Halloween!

ok so yeah...

2005-10-11T21:51:26Z

so i know this is probably one of the lamest livejournal updates in the history of livejournal updates but...i need your assistance. i'm taking a poll for my own vain purposes. so tell me.. should i straighten my hair for senior pictures or leave it curly? yeah. that's my dilemma.

A daily dose of other people's opinions can be good for you.

2005-10-10T00:21:18Z

Today was one of the best days i've had in a while. Thank goodness for cookies from a grandma, occasional country music, target, panera bread and coffee, my best friend and coincidental boyfriend whom I love so very much, getting homework done, dinner with my mom and dad, and last but not least this lazy-sunday fall weather.

brilliantlydull @ 2005-09-18T22:25:00

2005-09-19T03:26:01Z

blah.

Holy Shit

2005-09-17T19:20:48Z

If winter drumline doesn't start soon or we don't find out the theme soon, i'm going to pee myself in anticipation.

my house smells like rice and it's nice.

2005-09-11T06:17:11Z

life's been going pretty well.
very busy.
way busier than i am used to.
i've decided that i'd really rather not work.
it kinda sucks a lot.
my cat is staying up with me and pleasantly munching on her food while i type.
i thought that was pretty nice of my little fuzzball.
i should be going to bed.
i need to figure out what i am doing college-wise.
it seems like everyone else pretty much knows what they're doing.
i have noooo idea.
i swear someone over 40 asks me every day about what i am doing about college.
wish i knew.
i found a pretty dress today.
i don't really like updating my journal because i always want to delete my entries.
but i promise i'll try not to this time.
i love you.
sorry for the un-punctuated, uncapitalized, fragmented sentences.

oh and just for kicks and giggles-
i dropped a AAA battery on my foot last night and it left a perfect battery shaped circular bruise on my foot. it showed up like a minute after it happened. it was pretty crazy.

let's make babies til the break of dawn

2005-08-12T19:15:58Z

ok went and got my scheduale today let me know if we have any of the same classes pleeaasee.

AP English Mr. Cobine
Spanish 3 Mrs. Eubanks
Homeroom Mr. Russell
Computer Applications Mrs. Nolte
Band Mr. Ballin
Percussion Mr. Bettner
Pre Calc Mrs. Hansing
Government Mr. Wier

(Computer Applications may be subject to change)

A quick note about State Fair:
The two best performances we(or at least I) know we ever had were rewarded unfairly. The summer overall was awesome. 4th place for percussion caption... as Claire so elequently put it... you've got to be kidding me. That left a bitter taste in my mouth that I still haven't gotten the chance to spit out.

See you Tuesday if not sooner.

love and kisses,
Mary

so let's recap a bit shall we?

2005-07-12T04:46:16Z

if you choose to read this entry be prepared to trudge through a lot of talk of band, friends, family, school, the love life, and other ramblings as if you were wearing rain boots filled to the brim with mud.

BAND- i am very pleased with the way things have been going. sure there was some drama in the beginning, and sure my section has 8 freshman,and only 1 sophomore, 1 junior and 2 seniors. things are progressing really well. i feel fairly comfortable with the music and can't wait to get more. yeah we aren't the hot shit yet, and yeah not everybody is getting along, and oh yeah i suck at being section leader. but i'm happy. band camp is mere weeks away and i can't wait to room with juliann, eat fruity pebbles for breakfast every day, work to know my music like the back of my hand, senior dress up nights, all the traditions, and of course probably crying at bonfire. i can't believe we've all gotten so old all of a sudden.

FRIENDS- i miss megan. good lord my other half has been ripped away from me. we need to stitch ourselves back together before i die from losing this 115 pound vital organ. this summer has been awesome so far with getting to hang out with everyone all the time though i miss some people i used to see in school everyday. the people you never really hang out with much but realize how much their presence means once you are apart for a while. lately i've been missing some of the kids i grew up with in church and went to logos with for a smidgen of time. i just kinda drifted away from them once freshman year rolled around i guess. it also amazes me that i'm still finding new people to learn about that have been in my grade all along that i never really got to know. holy crap this entry is gonna be long.

FAMILY- with work and band and being with my friends and robin almost 24/7, i really haven't seen my family much at all, which,as it turns out, has it's perks as we are all getting along fairly well and appreciate each other's company when we can. i just took at trip with my mom to visit a college in michigan and it reminded me just how much i love her. my sister comes home from ecuador this sunday and i am anxiously awaiting her arrival. 7 months was a long time to be without her.

SCHOOL- as senior year approaches, the thought of all these finalities and decisions are weighing heavily on my mind. raise my SAT scores. raise my GPA. find a college. get accepted. wrap up your high school career. all those sort of things are sitting on the back of my mind causing the occasional stress attack until i push them back into the furthest nooks and crannies once again. there is such a sense of comfort in richmond. i always thought i'd be so ready to go to college but now that i am realizing what all it will mean, being away from friends and robin, not knowing my way around, having to compete in a specialized field. having to pick a major. writing essays. it's all looming there, a thick black cloud, brewing up a storm in my noggin.

THE LOVE LIFE- things are going swell. what can i say. i get to date my best friend ( well i mean you know besides megan and juli) we are able to look at each other and realize how lucky we are not to have to fight constantly and worry and deal with uneccessary drama. we just understand each other and don't care if all we do when we hang out is stay at home like old people sometimes. i dunno. i write for hours.

EXTENDED RAMBLINGS- i've been watering juli's neighbor's flowers while she was in chicago and such and i really enjoyed it. these beautiful houses with flowers in full bloom and the occasional fat neighbor cat following me around and rubbing against my ankles totally unswayed by the huge watering can or hose in my hand.
i really enjoy cooking for people.
i've been working on making shirts and such for myself and others almost every week this summer.
i love bran apple pancakes.
working isn't that great but having money is nice.
i've been doing 400 crunches a day which would be impressive if i didn't waste it all by eating two desserts a day too.
my birthday is coming up pretty soon.
DCI is soon.
band camp/state fair/ two-a-days are all soon.
i haven't been swimming in 3 summers.
i forgot how much i love the library and reading.
there are still so many things i want to do with the summer, i hope it stays as wonderful as it has been.

sorry for how long that was, guess i needed to get some things out of my system.
love,
mary

oh yeah and sorry i was too lazy to capitalize and punctuate correctly. deal with it.

ahem.

2005-06-27T20:13:26Z

Do you ever have those days when you just feel hideous?

yeah, it's one of those days.

on the subject of my legs...

2005-06-22T19:33:15Z

the way my legs look you'd think i've been wrestling timpani all the way to the orchestra room, but au contrair mon petites, i am merely an easily bruised pale kid who takes 15 minutes to roll an effing drum into a building.
so if you happen to see my legs today, there's your explanation.
no my father and robin haven't been beating me.

fill in my blanks, would you please?

2005-06-15T05:30:01Z

mary loves______.
mary would like to be ______ing right now.
mary's favorite animal is the______because________.
mary weighs_______ but she could afford to lose/gain another _______ pounds.
mary needs to read_____by________.
she also needs to see the movie ______.
the thing mary loves most about me is _______.
the person she looks up to probably more than anyone is_______.
mary considers all the guys on the drumline to be________.
if mary were lying on the side of the road on the verge of death i would ______.

feel free to add your own or not to bother yourselves at all
sorry this is kind of a lame post.
i didn't feel like i had anything better to put.

This is not how things were supposed to work out.

2005-05-25T23:15:07Z

Today and yesterday has taken all that I have in my and my better judgement to not just break down and cry, vomit all over creation, and scream at the top of my lungs. Don't ask me why, because it's a dumb reason and when I look at it from an outsider's perspective it makes me see how pathetic/immature/selfish (take your pick) i'm being.

But I want to say thank you for coming over just to hold me when you could hear me on the verge of tears on the phone. It meant the world to me.

brilliantlydull @ 2005-05-24T17:04:00

2005-05-24T22:06:43Z

I love you guys and gals.

oh man ...

2005-05-05T03:10:56Z

guess who just got her first real job?....

the suspense is killing you isn't it?

that's right!

you guessed it!

it's me!

i start training tomorrow from 5:30-9 at Dad's Ice Cream (just moved in attached to west side family video).

crazy as it may sound,and as reluctant as i was to hunt for jobs, i'm looking forward to this. the whole thing is set up like a retro-ish diner and i get to listen to the grease soundtrack and old rock'n roll all day long and scoop ice cream so that one of my arms will get all buff.

whenever the store actually opens you should let me scoop you up some delicious ice-creamy goodness.

it'll be fun.

you know you'd like it.

just an interesting tidbit

2005-04-26T23:00:23Z

I just watched a blurb on the nightly news about center grove's sucessful winter season. It barely did them justice but it was cool nonetheless to see them being featured on the news.

so life is going grand

2005-04-17T16:13:33Z

I now bring you another update on the mayhem and madness that is my life! aka the good and the bad! But luckily this time the good outweighs the bad by like...a lot.

So we'll start with the bad so that we can end on a happy note here:

Drumline is over for this season but no matter what the politics were or how much drama there was, it was still an awesome season.

I have to find a job

I need to look into more colleges and figure out what i'm doing with my life and what I might be good at.

SAT's are soon and I am positive my scores will be horrendous because I haven't studied and the only thing I did well on with the PSAT's was the english portion.

Some of the weight I lost might be coming back.

I miss my sister.

My grades aren't too bad but I could stand to make them better.

My arms and face are burnt compliments of watching Alex's soccer game saturday.

Robin's mom thinks we never spend any time apart from each other and never hang out with just our friends. crap.

On to the good!:

My mood has been skyrocketing ever since spring break/beginning of these year, for the most part things just keep getting better.

I have a feeling this summer will be truly awesome. I can't wait to just be with all my friends and have a super long version of spring break with some kings island and some camping and some drive in movies thrown in there. I have a feeling that during this summer band season our line can be really close if we want it to be. Granted, we are all pretty close already but just looking at riverside's line and how they interacted with us and each other really is inspiring. I want our line to be that close and to strive to be that good.

I love all of my friends and Robin of course so much.

We are going to have a drumline next winter and things will just keep getting better, I was so relieved to hear Mr.Bettner say that our line will still be intact next year.

It's hit me that soon (most of us) are going to be seniors and that just kind of blows my mind. It's a good thing but it's scary to think about for too long. I'm not quite ready to leave the comfort of knowing everyone and not having to worry about what I am doing with my life. The kids that aren't in band won't really get this but after all three years of listening to seniors that i've admired speak around the bonfire it's crazy to think that i'll be listening to all my friends this year.

It's also hit me that with us becoming seniors the other seniors are going to be gone. I'm going to miss Chris, Courtney, Claire, Michael Morris, and all the other seniors that i've looked up to and have made me laugh.

Ok well this is just getting long and excessive, I think i've covered almost everything and some things that everyone else has already covered too. Sorry about that.

-Mary

so i'm sitting inside...

2005-04-10T17:22:00Z

and i'm thinking to myself that "gee i should get outside!" because it's so splendid out there, at which time a seed from the apple i'm eating throws itself into my mouth to meet its doom. i almost choke. god is trying to smite me. or something. either way i think it's a sign that i should be out living my sixteen year old life instead of sitting in front of the computer.
you should too.
love,
ME

go outside

2005-04-07T17:04:43Z

yeah i know it's rainy and dull but just take a deep breath and let it slide down your throught and into your lungs. exhale. it'll make you feel better. i swear.

so i figured i'd update

2005-03-18T18:37:55Z

considering it's been almost two months since i have done so last.

and then i realized i dunno what to update about. drumline drama has been covered by several people already, things with robin are going splendid, my friends are wonderful,and school is...school.

so today is a wonderful day to be outside. it is sunny and warm. go drive with your windows down. do something outside today. it'll make you feel good.

so yeah, enough with the choppy sentances. tell me something i should update about and i'll do it, or just tell me to not update again for another few months and i'll do that to. i'm gonna go enjoy the day.

This is not an LJ cut, but it should be.

2005-01-20T22:30:27Z

My sister leaves in two weeks-ish for Ecuador.(this is also the date of our first drumline competition so i will not get to see her off properly)I will not see her again until mid-July. That is a long ass time without my dearest sibling and counterpart.

People have made a certain art out of perfecting their ways of criticizing themselves. They know just what to say when people argue with them. It's kind of sick really but I have to say that it is an art that I am beginning to master when necessary.

I don't know what I want to do in with the rest of my life outside of high school. Granted I have some time left and most everyone else is pretty much as clueless as I am, I can't even narrow it down much. I have many ideas of what I might like doing but most of them are based firmly in a part of my brain that knows I will never really accomplish these careers.
I want to be a writer but I don't spend time perfecting the skill and I don't enjoy most of my English assignments.
I might like teaching.
I don't want to be a copy of my sister's choices.
I spend most of my time involving myself with music.
I love physics and how most everything on earth can be explained in simple formulas. I am however, horrible at it.
I don't want to have one of those cubicle jobs where you may as well be a robot doing menial tasks day in and day out.
I admit that I've always wanted to fall desperately in love and eventually have children to call my own.
I like the comfort Richmond provides in knowing everyone and everything, but I know I'd feel much more at
home elsewhere.
I can't imagine a life without the three people that I hold most dear to me.i spend more time with them than I do with my own family.
I feel like I haven't acomplished anything of importance and that my place and the world will be minuscule and meaningless. It is like my whole life has been plagiarized. Some big omnipotent being copied and pasted me together into one little cliche of a person. This hypothetical omnipotent being also took great care in making sure that all of my friends and aquaintances were purely individuals and one-of-a-kinds.

So maybe that whole speil made it seem like i am unhappy. I'm not. I'm just a little lost as far as those things go.I'll give you some good things to equal everything out.
I have someone to love.
My grades are slowly getting better.
I'm eating healthier and consequently losing a little weight(ever so slowly)
It won't be too long before it will be summer.
After summer comes senior year.
Today I am taking advantage of the snow and will start writing the stories I've been thinking about for some time.
I am actually updating this journal today for the first time in over a month. Maybe my addiction to Livejournal and all the crap-filled things I tend to write in here is slowly starting to fade (I type to myself as I continue writing crap-filled things).

This summer I want to camp out in the playground of the old Pleasantview building.

So yes, this has been your monthly news coverage at 5:30. I'm Mary Edinger signing out.

I'm sure you're all dying to read this survey

2004-12-18T19:26:17Z

Hardest Class: physics
Easiest Class: percussion ensemble maybe
Most Fun Class: band or percussion
Best Teacher: Mr.Bettner or Mrs. Shuck
Worst Teacher: Mrs. Koester
Best Grade (in report card): A
Worst Grade (in report card): errrr that C at the worst...
Boring/Fun Lunch: quiet for the most part
Detentions: no
Best Game: last basketball game because i wasn't stuck playing cymbals all by my lonesome with no one to talk to
Worst Game: errrr the football game when we didn't get to wear hats and hoodies
Most Fun Dance: i only went to homecoming so i don't have many options
Newest Friend: i dunno that i really made many new ones just got closer to a few old ones
Oldest Friend: kevy or emily
Favorite Memory: going to chicago with juli maybe?
Embarrassing Memory: uhmmm accidently getting on the interstate a few days after i got my license with no interstate experiance. bah.
Worst Memory: drumline practice where everyone was pissed
Best School Meal: i do not partake in the consumption of school meals
Worst School Meal: " "
Best Decision: getting back together with el robino i suppose
Biggest Concern: physics, solo for band, those damned rudiments, learning pit parts etc...
Smallest Concern: homework
Friend you wish you still had:i guess i just wish i were closer with people i used to be really good friends with
Friend that you're glad you don't have: dont think i have any of those
Spring Break/Winter Break: winta
Biggest Fight: ray ray vs. terrence hogg
What was it about: a girl
Coolest Trend: err
Dumbest Trend: those damned livestrong bracelets even though i guess they support a good cause but when people have one to match every outfit...it gets to be a bit much
Good/Bad Year: meh
Rate it 1-10 (10 best): 4

it's december

2004-12-01T22:37:54Z

1 hour till drumline 1 day till the half day 2 days till the basketball game 3 days till the christmas parade 7 days till the band concert...oh wait, what's that? oh yeah i still suck at my solo. 12 days till christmas break 15 days till my 90 days are up 16 days till 1 year and 2 months,7 months, or 2 months however you want to look at it 24 days till christmas 27 days till my sister's birthday 30 days till a brand new year

a pox upon grammar i say!

2004-11-30T02:40:45Z

my toes are cold & you all fascinate me, every fucking one of you.
end signal.